Soul Healing Blog
|Posted by Terri DeMarco on August 8, 2018 at 8:50 PM|
Jumping Time Lines
Have you ever had a life experience that Freaks you Out? One that definitely gets your attention? This was my experience during the full moon, elcipse season just recently. I was taking a shower in the morning in preparation of getting ready to head out to run errands. As I got out of the shower, I walked over the sink to put in my contacts and I glanced into the mirror. When I looked down at my contact case sitting on the counter, the case was open. Surprised, I picked up the case and brought it close to my eyes…and it was empty! Now horrified shocked surprise was the emotion that greeted me. I started to “look etherically” at my immediate past moments and had NO memory of picking up the case and opening it….and certainly NO memory of dumping my contacts down the drain!!!!!
I called for my husband who came up to help me. And he started talking to me slowly and calmly. I was close to freaking out as I almost shouted….”I can’t remember doing this!!” When I looked backwards, all I could find was a black space in my memory. He continued to quietly ask questions as we started taking the sink drain apart…and finally he said: If all the obvious actions has been excluded, then the strange ones must be true…or something like that. To which I had to finally accept in my struggle with reality that… I HAD DUMPED THEM DOWN THE DRAIN, with no conscious memory of doing it.
So then I considered that I had done it…..and another round of disbelief occured with the question? Why would I dump $500 dollars worth of contacts (I have special ones :)) down the drain? And I can’t remember doing it???
Long story short….we Found them!! in the drain. All the while I am reviewing what happened and what I didn’t remember happening. I remembered a couple days before that I had had a flash of memory (or so I thought at the time) of one other episode that had happened 8 or so years earlier when I had accidently dumped my contacts down the drain while away on vacation. It was the motivational experience to carry a second pair of contacts with me when I travel. I am pretty blind without correction and glasses distort my vision and cause headaches. I recovered the contacts that time too. Was it a memory or pre-cognition a couple days prior to this experience?
A couple days later, I contacted my friend Shelley for help and after listening to my details of the experience, she pretty calmly said “this sounds like the experience of jumping time lines that many people are experiencing right now.” Holy Sh*t…others are having startling experiences that test their concept of reality?. And I quickly asked, “why would anybody in any time line or reality dump $500 contacts down a drain?” She helped calm me with the explanation that this experience showed me I am” in process on the ascension pathway, not stuck” and I left the conversation feeling like parts of the puzzle had fallen in place.
Sitting in contemplation last week…..Spirit showed me another analogy - from the Matrix movie, the scene where Neo is searching for the Time Keeper and they run through a door and find themselves in a long hall way of doors. Each door is another possibility in an endless hallway. The explanation continued that in jumping realities, I open A door and walked into the reality where I had lost my contacts down the drain…jumping time lines, jumping realities by going through a door way all in what felt like No time. This glimpse helped me move further into understanding and accepting. And finally,... everything happens for a reason… I look forward, calmly to see what is connected to this new time line. Blessings, Terri
|Posted by Terri DeMarco on February 21, 2018 at 9:05 AM|
From Terri: I sometimes feel guided to post an article from another Soul. in this moment of Ascension flow...thus, Soul guidance from Kara.....EnJOY!
Moving Beyond - 20-Feb-2018 from Kara at Soulstice Rising
We continuously bring forth higher and higher frequencies; non-stop. We may feel them more strongly during eclipses and Moon cycles and yet, they continuously flow into us to help us rise in consciousness, which affects every area of our life. It is not for us to go to the higher places of high dimensional Light Codes; it is for us to have them descend into us; into all our cells, bodies, electrical system and DNA so we may truly rise to be who we truly are. There are no timelines; only beliefs and patterns that must transform so that we may integrate this Light.
There are many illusions we have believed in and these are deeply rooted within us. One is that we believe we get old and die, as well as creating a terrible disease with death following. Remember, all is our choice...whether that choice is conscious or unconscious. We need not get sick and we don't have to “die.” There is no death. We choose to be on Earth at this time. We choose when we leave our physical forms or we choose to stay in body, as well as choosing to step away from continual reincarnation. Many may disagree, so entrenched are we in these worldwide beliefs. Many will choose to decide that this is false information and I can see where this belief is strong within myself. It is not for me to tell you what to feel or think, so just be still and feel through all that I share, as you take what resonates and discard what does not. In time, you may resonate with what I am guided to share or not. That is not for me to say.
Another old belief is that we must work in order to “earn a living;” foregoing the Trust that is required that Source truly is our supply. This takes unwavering Faith that as we put all of our attention on Source, all else is added. Many have a belief in labels as well. Labeling yourself as anything creates a belief in separation. You may be empathic, yet you are not an empath. You may teach or heal, yet you are not a teacher or healer. You may mother others, yet you are not a mother, for you have chosen to hold a space for another to evolve, if that is your choice. In other lifetimes, you may have been a Cathar, a priestess, a priest, a nun and so forth...that was then when we did not have this New Awareness. Knowledge of past lives are not for us to necessarily continue that path, but to integrate the gifts and not the title.
Just today I was told that a few “truths” I had been told and bought into are untruths. I was shocked and yet I realized just how many lies we buy into and create beliefs from. First comes shock and then anger and then relief as a particular lie is revealed and more Freedom ensues. We get so attached to lies we buy into, when it is the attachment to the lie that creates the belief. I wonder if all of the history we have been told is all lies. Each of us comes to our own Awareness in Divine Time. One need not go searching for what untruths they have adopted; when it is time, all is revealed. Having this Awareness not only frees us; it helps us evolve to be more; to be who we are...Divine Sovereign Beings of Love.
Truly, the only way to Truth is to go within and by continuing to do the inner work, as you are called to do. Nothing happens without you taking full Responsibility. Your guides don't take care of things; they support your decisions in a detached and unconditional way. Folks in human bodies cannot help you; they can point the way, yet it is ultimately your Responsibility to do the work. You can intend for what you want in life and then take a step in that direction. Each time you take a step, you energize your intention. As we integrate the higher energies, we must also clear oursleves of all doubt, fear, unworthiness, separation, etc. Be clear on what it is you want and then take a step in that direction; as you do, much is wholed. All you desire is truly within you; make sure that what you want is based on essence and not on form. For instance, rather than asking for more money, see that Abundance is already within you. In this way, you begin to manifest what is within. If you find there is an energy of lack within, release it to empower your Abundance. Rather than wanting something in your life to be fixed, focus on Wholeness within. This allows your Soul to work with whatever vibration you carry and what is manifest is a much higher form than you can imagine and it has within it the essence you intend. You can ask, “How would I feel if I had more money?” “How would I feel if this particular issue was healed in my life?” When you have your answer, focus on that feeling, for the feeling is essence. Essence is feeling and it is Soul-based and of the Heart.
If you find fault in another, know that that very thing exists within you. With this Awareness, you can release and transform this old energy. You see, you cannot see something in another that isn't within yourself, including all the wonderful things you see in another. It is important to love oneself as you love others...unconditionally and in full Acceptance. Even if another's actions are heinous to you, love that one, for that being may very well be in service to Love and the unspeakable act is a way to help clear others of judgment, anger and anything that comes up in them that is not Love. To love another so completely takes a person who is nothing but Love, with all hatred transformed. To love another unconditionally means to fully love without exception. You are still in duality if you love this one, but not that one. Realize that your Love does not necessarily change another, for that is for them to do; yet it does expand you.
So much is shifting that it is essential to rest. When it feels like you simply cannot do a thing, that is your Soul telling you to rest; tomorrow (or whenever) is another day. Follow your Guidance always without judgment or guilt. When you follow your own Guidance and rhythm, you integrate more Love and this Love moves out from you even when you think you are doing nothing This is a huge shift for many, so attached to doing that being seems to be wasted time. It is not! Being is actually more powerful than doing, as much of your doing has to do with old rules and beliefs. Being is Heart-centered and experienced in the Moment. Much of this transition calls for quiet, so do not be concerned if you feel you are not doing enough and know that you are more; much more; than enough. You see, if you sense you are not doing enough, it is a message to you that you have a belief that you are not enough. Let go and Be.
We are moving very fast; not in doing, but in ascending. Let go of focusing on proof that this is so by outer appearances. Rather, feel within you and trust that so much is evolving deep within you Things may look different outside of yourself as well; it all depends on what is for your highest evolution. Certainly, you very well may experience Light in different forms and others may react or respond to you in a different way. However it occurs is just for you. Do not compare yourself to another's experience; trust in your own.
High energy awakens more of you and you may have visions of the future as well as Aha! Breakthroughs. Act if you're guided to or simply observe without a need to do anything about what you experience. Spend time pondering or journaling about your experiences. Do not be discouraged if you share with someone and they look at you with a blind stare. Much of what you experience simply cannot be shared with another. Much of what we experience is for ourselves alone.
Be very gentle with yourself. Do not push or have expectations about yourself. When you are gentle and accepting of self, you anchor more Love as you. We are all adjusting to this new space we're in. As we continue to rise in consciousness and Awareness, our perceptions and perspectives shift; nothing remains the same. You may receive an Awareness of why a particular event happened or not. Whatever you experience is specifically for your own evolution. You may be drawn to explore past actions in this life or in others, you may see the dynamic behind someone's behavior, you may have sudden moments of absolute Clarity...all is in Divine Order and there is no stopping place. We contually evolve to be more without seeking, yet we are being gently pushed to be more.
In the old, you may have needed confirmation, validation and support from those around you. Sometimes it came; sometimes it didn't. In the New, you validate yourself. You don't look for approval from someone else. As this becomes stronger in you, much of the old is transformed...the need for approval from others, having to prove yourself, people-pleasing in order to be accepted and loved, disappointment when someone did not treat you the way you think they should have (expectations) and many “outer and old matrix” patterns. Be gentle and supportive of you; pushing through, making something happen and being critical is all of the old. Be gentle, kind and loving to you. This is the way of the New.
Be grateful for all in your life without striving for what you believe you do not have. Acknowledge yourself for the many gifts you have and share. Intend that all your actions are spiritually guided and for the benefit of all. You are so very loved and loveable.
Something I wrote in 2005 (it just fell by my feet):
Passion: when one has Passion they are unwavering in their Devotion; their Faith.
When one is continally striving, they move themselves out of the Acceptance of the Moment. By moving into the future, it's as if one is saying they don't trust the Divine Plan.
Faithing: the action of being in Faith continuously...in all they think, feel and do.
To have radical Faith, one must know that there is a Divine Plan. It is also a call to release judgment and let it be O.K. to not have solution; there is a field beyond right and wrong. Move beyond.
|Posted by Terri DeMarco on September 3, 2016 at 8:15 PM|
We are the Collective Consciousness from the Realm of the Lords of Light. We are presenting this message in a triadic configuration of Lords Metatron, Michael, and Melchizedek. Our message is one that will assist you in these times when there is a great impetus to create from the influence of your soul/spirit evolutionary consciousness.
Many on Earth are feeling the energetic impulse to make a change in their life experience but cannot connect with the momentum to create such change. They are too occupied with maintaining a status quo. Listen to the energetic impulses that tell you to go within and expand your consciousness. Don’t continue to walk the path of resistance that is present when the old familiar paradigm of fear presents itself. Self-doubt also is part of this old paradigm. See self-doubt and fear clearly as thoughts that you can now change.
You are assisted by the energetic influence of an evolving consciousness that is based in a foundation of love and unity. This has been spoken of many times by messages from the Ascended Masters and Archangels. Take notice, beloveds. These messages are real. They are intended to help you alter your life experience in a physical body on Earth and live a physical life that is always harmoniously fine tuned to the essence of your soul/spirit’s wisdom.
We are here to remind you to be mindful what is energetically pulsed into your personal energetic field and into the Earth daily. You can use the highest potential of your soul’s wisdom if you will stay aware of your thoughts and feelings.
Do not think of these energetic impulses from a negative point of view. See them as an opportunity to create change in your personal life as well as assist the
Earth to shift more stably into a 5th dimension. Having a stable 5th-dimensional environment on Earth is an invaluable asset in your ascension process. Will you continue to think the same thoughts or will you be aware and change them immediately when you notice them as faulty?
When you embrace the 5th-dimensional creative energies that are now available, you relax into the energy of that fluid, unlimited possibility as you express yourself in life. Notice how there is no resistance in your body and how your mind is calm. You have created an environment that is conducive to creating consciously and precisely. Your thoughts can easily be directed, and you manifest easily because your thoughts are precise and directed through your intention and your attention. This can only be accomplished when there is no resistance.
Resistance is created when your mind is bombarded by skepticism, doubt and too many opposing thoughts that cause confusion. When you are in a state of confusion, you can only focus on the confusion or the fear. You cannot see the many options that you have for creating because your focus is already directed to your fear and confusion. There is no room for a shift in attention points because of the resistance that is present in the body and in the mind.
Implement the changes that you want to make by using energetic color codes that will help you maintain a calm environment. The green color code of love is very expansive and calming. It works with your emotional body as well as your mental body and helps you to alter your state of consciousness. The blue color code shifts your emotions and brings your emotional body into a harmonious functioning by raising your emotions to a more refined expression. Use a yellow color code to raise your mental body to a higher more stable frequency range. This helps you use thoughts that emanate from the wisdom of your soul/spirit. The yellow color codes propel you into states of Christ Consciousness. What an asset Christ Consciousness is in creating your life experience from this higher and more refined perspective.
Know that the energetic impulses that are coming from the Cosmic Realms contain many color codes in addition to light frequencies. The Magenta Color Code has been spoken of recently. It is a very powerful and expansive color code. It contains all color codes and helps you to focus your attention predominately on your transformation and ascension process.
This is what is available on Earth now. Why would you perceive it as too intense? Embrace what is so generously given from the Source of your being. Don’t fall into the old 3rd-dimnensional patterns because they are familiar. Say YES to what is energetically present. Relax into the influence of these energies. Realize that this is the step that your soul/spirit is encouraging you to take. Summon your courage and take it!
The Triad of Lords Metatron, Michael, and Melchizedek
|Posted by Terri DeMarco on December 18, 2014 at 1:50 PM|
Becoming Real….a Love Story
There are many stories in childhood that teach us that Love can heal and make us real, for example, a real live boy in "Pinocchio" and a real live bunny in the "Velveteen Rabbit," two of my favorites. They contain a teaching of how finding, awakening, being the love that expressed to them...changes them into what they were always meant to be. Such are the learning of stuffed bunnies or wooden toys ....and human beings.
I'm remembering the belief of "Love heals" that started in my childhood and has carried me though the years of raising a family. Now, it's put into action with opening to spiritual awareness and changing consciousness. I recognize that I've been on the pathway of Soul Consciousness, becoming real, as I've studied in Mastering Alchemy online program with Ascended Masters, Archangels and Lords of Light. I asked "to be given time to understand what is happening to me" and the last 8 years have unfolded in answer to this request. Some people call it enlightenment, or waking up, while others refer to the ascension process, and even I have called it the pathway of self-empowerment. I am following a soul healer's pathway of becoming real. And love is the Way, the Truth, and the energy pathway (Light).
The soul healing/awakening process includes discovering where you are "stuck". Perhaps... within your thoughts where self limiting beliefs you've been taught by family, peer groups, school, church, culture are based in blame, separation, worry and lack. Very closely related to negative thinking, stuck may be the lower energetic emotions we hold that support doubt, guilt, feed anxiety and keep people stuck in 3rd dimensional mass consciousness of fear. Much of Soul healing is discovereing, dismantling, clearing, releasing these lower frequencies that stop us from "being" who we truely are. We heal by focusin our awareness, thoughts and emotions in higher frequencies, balance and resonance with our higher selves, our Soul's wisdom.
This lower vibrating human is not who we are; this is not who we've come here to Be this lifetime. And dismantling lower energies and moving into higher frequencies of self-love, self-trust and mutual care and respect for each other is about becoming real through the energy of love.
1. We are "real" when we recognize, accept and act from the reality that we are an individualized aspect of Soul-Spirit in a physical body.
2. We "act" real when we hold our focused awareness in the present NOW moment of harmony, and do not waiver when 3D surrounds us with drama and turmoil for our consideration.
3. Becoming real is the practice of self-love and self-respect when making choices, and then consciously creating the New Earth by following through with our actions, i.e. treating others as we treat ourselves. Being responsible for our "outcomes" in every moment is part of this.
4. We access and act from our Soul's wisdom as we move through experiences and share who we are energetically, resonating the Love of the All That Is as higher wisdom.
5. We become real when we raise our vibration to reflect physical well-being, mental harmony, emotional balance reflected in congruent relationships, while accessing the frequency of undifferentiated Light of Soul-Spirit.
The planet Earth is moving into higher consciousness with the help of the Elementals and humanity,... for we are truly connected. We are lovingly transforming ourselves into radiant Lightbody and actively assisting with the evolution of the human species. We are Loving ourSELVES as real, soul-conscious beings, for the upliftment of all on the earth and all in this sector of the Universe. What a Love story …unfolding in this lifetime, becoming who we really are…Light, Love, Soul-Spirit in a physical body.
Wishing you all a wonderful Christed Holiday season….may 2015 be filled with love, laughter, well-being and harmony as we become further the Real Love that we are!
Blessings of Christed Light, Terri
|Posted by Terri DeMarco on January 7, 2011 at 2:55 PM|
"There is something within us that yearns for love. This is embedded within the deepest recesses of consciousness. Nothing short of total union with the Divine Love will satisfy the deep inner desires of the soul, once it has tasted of this and been awakened to the light of Truth."
This is the journey into alignment in the Christ Consciousness. It is the sacred quest for love, understanding, compassion, forgiveness, empathy, mercy, kindness, tolerance, patience, and courage. It is discovering what Spirit wants for you – abundance, joy, happiness, and peace of mind. All of the difficulties of your life – anger, guilt, shame, obsessive/compulsive disorders, addictions, and other emotional toxins and mental mal-adjustments, even physical ailments can successfully be overcome by aligning with your Higher Self in the Christ Consciousness.
The Soul is a divine aspect of Creator Source that is and maintains the individual essence of who you are as well as serves as the connection to unity consciousness of the OverSoul. Without Soul healing, we don't obtain wholeness, achieve authentic power or move into enlightenment.
Soul healing with Christ energy facilitates the body-mind energy alignment to one’s divine nature; it facilitates the discovery of who we really came here to be while helping us connect to our own internal source of Spirit. The Christ Light bridges the lower self with the Higher Self, the ego self with the Soul self and conscious awareness expands. The density of the lower self, the mental/emotional blockages and shadow aspects are dismantled, released, cleared, transformed, and healed with the influx of Christ Light through our intention and attention.
Attachments are released, soul fragments are healed and integrated; stored trauma and drama, illness and dis-ease are released or transformed at the level of DNA cellular memory. Karmic wounds, old belief systems and emotional-thought forms are dismantled or re-structured, integrated and healed. Aligning the Soul with the lower self with Christ energy brings about healings, alignments, realizations, transformations, recapitulations and advancements as they are required by the individual’s soul’s choice. Without the soul’s wisdom and direction, these feats cannot be attained nor does complete healing take place.
Creator Source can gently repair the damage to the psyche, fix distorted thought patterns, and cleanse the emotional toxins that weigh upon the Soul. As the lower, dense energy of shadow aspects dissolve, the Soul is more fully integrated in the heart. Life’s choices are made from the wisdom of the Higher Self and one begins to think from the Sacred Heart, not from the rational (figure it out) mind. We feel lighter, happier because we are vibrating at a higher, faster frequency of soul-sacred heart alignment. We are literally, holding more Light, the Christ Light. Fears, judgments, addictions, emotional, mental and physical pain are dismantled and released and life is better because we consciously choose to let go and change occurs. Our awareness, attitudes,choices and perspective of life reflects the transformation of the change inside us.
As we hold more Light, we choose to follow the Soul’s wisdom to grow, to take responsibility for our healing, to neutralize the shadow and ego and to balance the energies of the physical, mental, emotional and spiritual bodies. Soul awakening and Soul healing are the focus and object of Christ energy healing sessions, as we align fully with our Divine self, becoming fully conscious, fully aware of our divine nature and One with Spirit.
|Posted by Terri DeMarco on November 3, 2010 at 11:11 PM|
This autobiography was written in 2004 when I was “first” waking up, experiencing the Christ Energy changes and began remembering who I AM. This is a condensed story from the first version I wrote and i've further edited it for the website. In the beginning, (as always) Spirit definitely got my attention. Blessings, Terri
The Energy of Change
Once upon a lifetime, I set out to find my truth and I found Creator Source. For some reason, I did not realize that a spiritual path, mental/emotional healing, God and Truth were all so closely related. Oh, the wisdom one gains when least expected. This “story” is my spiritual awakening. It is Spirit’s answer to my choices. I now trust that there is a higher purpose for the accelerated awakening I am going through. I share it with you, because I know others are experiencing expanded realities upon ‘waking up’ too.
My awakening involves accepting the ‘gift’ of a man, Abdy Electriciteh, who is a source of Christ Consciousness energy – Divine Grace, Shakti, an energy of change. Abdy, through his presence, ‘triggers’ the flow of this energy, enveloping a person’s body, and allowing a spiritual connection where the mental mind is not in control. The first time I received the gift, he simply looked into my eyes, touching nothing, saying nothing. All the Sessions I have attended have been amazing ‘events’ in my life and giant steps forward on my spiritual path.
To Let Go
In May 2003, I voiced my intent to get unstuck from the emotional drama warring inside of me, and I ‘chose’ to complete my divine purpose, to let go and follow Divine Will. Since the 9/11, I had “chosen” to become totally drawn into a roller coaster, drama-charged relationship with my family - war and peace struggles that brought pain, grief and fear that affected my health, emotions and attitude toward life. I reached a point where I decided that I must detach from the negative emotions of the sour relationships and choose to move forward and discover my purpose.
It was at this point that I received a call from a friend, inviting me to my first Session with Abdy. I had no idea what Abdy did, but I was already beginning to follow the "coincidences" that were now directing my life’s path. I started trusting my choices while intending to ‘stay in the flow’. Being in the flow, in my mind, was equal to getting unstuck. I did not realize that the Christ Consciousness energy was awakening the kundalini energy ... yet.
I now know that the Christ Spark was triggered during the first Session with Abdy. I felt Abdy walk up to my body and lightly touch my heart center. Waves of energy rushed up from that central point, vibrating through my body, opening and expanding my heart center and energy fields. When I got up off the floor, the change was immediately evident with my vision. I could not focus my eyes for over two hours which was a bit concerning because I was driving home, one and a half hours drive. Now, I recognize that when the Christ Energy is active within me, my vision is blurry.
After the first Sessions, I started having psychic experiences, where I observed the matrix or grids that we are connected to and surround us on Mother Earth. I started seeing energy rings or waves that encircle people and that represent relationships. I started understanding and ‘reading’ energy threads or pathways and energy waves. It was intense and change was rapid.
During a session, I was ‘shown’ the column of energy that ‘hit’ the Earth on 9/11 and the gigantic wave of earth and energy that emanated from the force of impact - like pebbles thrown into water, creating concentric circular energy waves that ripple outward. I understood that the 9/11 was in answer to many of our prayers - prayers to bring change for a higher good, altho greatly disquished. And it is an interesting ‘coincidence’ that my two-year drama-charged journey with my family started that same day, on the 9/11.
The Choice to Heal
A week before I was to attend my third Abdy Session, I was sitting on my patio, enjoying a beautiful summer afternoon, when a voice spoke inside my mind “You have a ‘karmic wound’ in your energy field. It is stopping you from incorporating all of you, from becoming whole.” I sat there stunned and exclaimed, “What is a karmic wound?” Karmic wound - an injury in past life that perpetuates itself in your energy field, over many lifetimes until it is finally healed.
During my third Session with Abdy, I was lying on the floor of the Convent and a ‘column of energy’ poured into my solar plexus and heart. My hands lifted and were positioned over my chest gently holding the column of energy. I suddenly started whispering in another language. The healing ‘column of energy’ continued to pour down as the words were pouring out of my mouth, so fast, that my tongue was tripping over the sounds.
As the energy and words slowed down, I received more information in my mind. The ‘karmic wound’ occured in my last lifetime in Atlantis. The drama of the previous two years was a gift, an opportunity to remember and learn to heal this wound; and this new perspective filled me with wondrous love and the tears started to flow.
When I was asked afterwards about the language pouring out of me, I simply said I was speaking Atlantean. I refer to this language as Soul Language or Language of Light now and have found others who are helping me as I learn more about this unfolding gift.
Hosting Abdy in my hometown for the first time in Northern Ontario in September 2003 as fast approaching. Although I did not understand how much this would change my life, I was grateful to recognize that I was no longer “stuck”. I was beginning to realize I was on an accelerated path and something was happening inside me.
One has no control over what happens to the Self when receiving the gift – physically, mentally or emotionally, your Soul and Divine Will is directing the experience. The mental/rational mind surrenders to that highest power. As I lay on the floor filled with Christ Consciousness energy, I spoke soul language. My body trembled with waves of vibration and chakras contracted, released and aligned with the flow of Christ Energy. The spot on my forehead associated with the Third Eye started hurting and Abdy sat down on the floor next to me. He laid his hand on my forehead. My right hand was freezing cold and was shaking uncontrollably with energy. Involuntarily, my arm lifted up and I placed my right hand on top of his left, and then my awareness departed.
My conscious awareness left my body while I was lying on the floor. What happened, I don’t remember. But I do remember coming back to consciousness, realizing that my right hand was pressing down hard on his hand and my forehead, like a ton of bricks. I consciously removed my hand and then I felt confused and dazed. What had just happened?
I did not want to leave the session. I had a splitting headache, my eyes were blurry and I could not think. Now, I know that I was experiencing ‘typical’ symptoms of a kundalini energy awakening. It was going to get more intense as the evening progressed. (For symptoms see www.kundalini-gateway.org/ksigns.) Now, I understand that the Christ Energy can ignite the kundalini energy and the kundalini energy can ignite the Christ Spark. Then, I had no clue, nor was i prepared for a spiritual awakening -- no matter how many books i had read.
I began to experience many things people have written about when suddenly going through a spiritual awakening process. I did not know that my Third Eye was ‘blown wide open’ until later that evening. My daughter, who had attended the Abdy Session with me, held my hand and talked with me as ‘what happened’ started to filter into my consciousness. My head was pounding and I couldn’t stop crying as full body waves of vibrating energy flowed through me. God/Spirit was talking to me and the vastness of the void was a reality i couldn't get my mind around -- i had so much to comprehend. Imagine, using the rational mind to understand Creator Source. No wonder i thought i was going insane.
Later that night, EmmaLee supported me through a vulnerable state of feeling totally overwhelmed by the “mind blowing” experience and she helped me regain my sanity, anchor and balance so i could sleep. I felt as though I had come apart on every level of my being, and I did not know how to put myself back together again. As each day progressed, I experienced overwhelming panic and anxiety, i couldn't breathe. I did not yet understand what was happening. But I was also aware of the protection and support of angels and those from the Spiritual Hierarchy, surrounding and thus guiding me through the discovery/awakening process. And Spirit sent me human angels that gently taught me and guided me as i now lived in a new reality.
My reality now included the truth that God, Higher Intelligence, Creator Source exists, and I was talking with Him/Her in two-way conversations. Over the next couple weeks, I questioned my life and definitely, I wanted more. I chose a life filled with joy, love, peace, trust and compassion. I questioned everything that existed in my old world. I was beginning to learn how to straddle both worlds. My body was vibrating continually. The language was spontaneously pouring out of my mouth—which gave me some concern as I was working full time as I moved through this accelerated change. The changes were evident to me on all levels of my physical, mental, emotional and spiritual bodies; and I wondered if anyone could tell. And then Spirit started teaching me.
The Bud Opens
Abdy was up again, just before the Harmonic Concordance in November 2003, when I realized God was not finished with me yet. I know I am only at the beginning, the ‘bud’ stage of a flower just opening – the beginning of being whole; however, the Christ energy was accelerating my path and enhancing my soul’s awakening. Abdy had told us to be very clear with our intent during the window from the 8th to the 23rd. It was on the 15th that I started to notice how the energy was affecting me.
That night, when I connected with the energy I found myself speaking with God, and in response to divine questions, I made several choices. I then experienced some amazing things. As I was speaking in Atlantean, Soul Language, I felt my awareness ‘step back’ from the cognitive process of consciously forming the language and I just observed. The pure language poured out of me for several minutes while I listened and “felt” the energy of the language/sounds.
Then as I sat on the couch, somehow, a wave of energy was triggered that rose up through my physical body and permeated every cell of my body. It felt like a ring of energy that rose up from my Base Chakra and out of my Crown Chakra. As it reached my shoulders, I felt heaviness literally tossed away from my body. I felt the emotional weight leave as it was thrown through my energy bodies. As this occurred, I spontaneously spoke out loud a blessing of transformation for the highest good. As the ring moved up through my head and away, the fogginess in my mind cleared. My shoulders physically relaxed, my whole body felt lighter, my mood was suddenly happier, and I was somehow different than I had been just prior to this event. Life was worth living again. I have never experienced such a total transformation in a mere 2 – 3 seconds before. I can no longer touch those warring emotions from the past – they are gone. And this was just the beginning, so much more followed.
The energy spirals continue as new miracles are unfolding and I understand that we are never “done”. I am asked, how has my life changed? Well, I talk with God and I can hear Her answer. I am discovering the purpose of this lifetime. I continue to gather all that I AM while healing the mental/emotional blockages. I see possibilities of future paths, and access other dimensions, see other realities, and my intuition is awake and I am more aware each day. I make choices with Divine guidance. My healing gifts are evolving, and I am a funnel for Christ Energy, a sacred gift of awakening to share as humanity evolves. And so, this was the beginning of changes that the Christ Energy in connection with my Soul, brought my way and ....
I believe that Love heals everything.
I live a life that will never be boring again!
Life flows with Love according to a Divine Plan.
I am remembering to Trust and to let go and let God.