Soul Healing Blog
|Posted by Terri DeMarco on November 3, 2010 at 11:11 PM|
This autobiography was written in 2004 when I was “first” waking up, experiencing the Christ Energy changes and began remembering who I AM. This is a condensed story from the first version I wrote and i've further edited it for the website. In the beginning, (as always) Spirit definitely got my attention. Blessings, Terri
The Energy of Change
Once upon a lifetime, I set out to find my truth and I found Creator Source. For some reason, I did not realize that a spiritual path, mental/emotional healing, God and Truth were all so closely related. Oh, the wisdom one gains when least expected. This “story” is my spiritual awakening. It is Spirit’s answer to my choices. I now trust that there is a higher purpose for the accelerated awakening I am going through. I share it with you, because I know others are experiencing expanded realities upon ‘waking up’ too.
My awakening involves accepting the ‘gift’ of a man, Abdy Electriciteh, who is a source of Christ Consciousness energy – Divine Grace, Shakti, an energy of change. Abdy, through his presence, ‘triggers’ the flow of this energy, enveloping a person’s body, and allowing a spiritual connection where the mental mind is not in control. The first time I received the gift, he simply looked into my eyes, touching nothing, saying nothing. All the Sessions I have attended have been amazing ‘events’ in my life and giant steps forward on my spiritual path.
To Let Go
In May 2003, I voiced my intent to get unstuck from the emotional drama warring inside of me, and I ‘chose’ to complete my divine purpose, to let go and follow Divine Will. Since the 9/11, I had “chosen” to become totally drawn into a roller coaster, drama-charged relationship with my family - war and peace struggles that brought pain, grief and fear that affected my health, emotions and attitude toward life. I reached a point where I decided that I must detach from the negative emotions of the sour relationships and choose to move forward and discover my purpose.
It was at this point that I received a call from a friend, inviting me to my first Session with Abdy. I had no idea what Abdy did, but I was already beginning to follow the "coincidences" that were now directing my life’s path. I started trusting my choices while intending to ‘stay in the flow’. Being in the flow, in my mind, was equal to getting unstuck. I did not realize that the Christ Consciousness energy was awakening the kundalini energy ... yet.
I now know that the Christ Spark was triggered during the first Session with Abdy. I felt Abdy walk up to my body and lightly touch my heart center. Waves of energy rushed up from that central point, vibrating through my body, opening and expanding my heart center and energy fields. When I got up off the floor, the change was immediately evident with my vision. I could not focus my eyes for over two hours which was a bit concerning because I was driving home, one and a half hours drive. Now, I recognize that when the Christ Energy is active within me, my vision is blurry.
After the first Sessions, I started having psychic experiences, where I observed the matrix or grids that we are connected to and surround us on Mother Earth. I started seeing energy rings or waves that encircle people and that represent relationships. I started understanding and ‘reading’ energy threads or pathways and energy waves. It was intense and change was rapid.
During a session, I was ‘shown’ the column of energy that ‘hit’ the Earth on 9/11 and the gigantic wave of earth and energy that emanated from the force of impact - like pebbles thrown into water, creating concentric circular energy waves that ripple outward. I understood that the 9/11 was in answer to many of our prayers - prayers to bring change for a higher good, altho greatly disquished. And it is an interesting ‘coincidence’ that my two-year drama-charged journey with my family started that same day, on the 9/11.
The Choice to Heal
A week before I was to attend my third Abdy Session, I was sitting on my patio, enjoying a beautiful summer afternoon, when a voice spoke inside my mind “You have a ‘karmic wound’ in your energy field. It is stopping you from incorporating all of you, from becoming whole.” I sat there stunned and exclaimed, “What is a karmic wound?” Karmic wound - an injury in past life that perpetuates itself in your energy field, over many lifetimes until it is finally healed.
During my third Session with Abdy, I was lying on the floor of the Convent and a ‘column of energy’ poured into my solar plexus and heart. My hands lifted and were positioned over my chest gently holding the column of energy. I suddenly started whispering in another language. The healing ‘column of energy’ continued to pour down as the words were pouring out of my mouth, so fast, that my tongue was tripping over the sounds.
As the energy and words slowed down, I received more information in my mind. The ‘karmic wound’ occured in my last lifetime in Atlantis. The drama of the previous two years was a gift, an opportunity to remember and learn to heal this wound; and this new perspective filled me with wondrous love and the tears started to flow.
When I was asked afterwards about the language pouring out of me, I simply said I was speaking Atlantean. I refer to this language as Soul Language or Language of Light now and have found others who are helping me as I learn more about this unfolding gift.
Hosting Abdy in my hometown for the first time in Northern Ontario in September 2003 as fast approaching. Although I did not understand how much this would change my life, I was grateful to recognize that I was no longer “stuck”. I was beginning to realize I was on an accelerated path and something was happening inside me.
One has no control over what happens to the Self when receiving the gift – physically, mentally or emotionally, your Soul and Divine Will is directing the experience. The mental/rational mind surrenders to that highest power. As I lay on the floor filled with Christ Consciousness energy, I spoke soul language. My body trembled with waves of vibration and chakras contracted, released and aligned with the flow of Christ Energy. The spot on my forehead associated with the Third Eye started hurting and Abdy sat down on the floor next to me. He laid his hand on my forehead. My right hand was freezing cold and was shaking uncontrollably with energy. Involuntarily, my arm lifted up and I placed my right hand on top of his left, and then my awareness departed.
My conscious awareness left my body while I was lying on the floor. What happened, I don’t remember. But I do remember coming back to consciousness, realizing that my right hand was pressing down hard on his hand and my forehead, like a ton of bricks. I consciously removed my hand and then I felt confused and dazed. What had just happened?
I did not want to leave the session. I had a splitting headache, my eyes were blurry and I could not think. Now, I know that I was experiencing ‘typical’ symptoms of a kundalini energy awakening. It was going to get more intense as the evening progressed. (For symptoms see www.kundalini-gateway.org/ksigns.) Now, I understand that the Christ Energy can ignite the kundalini energy and the kundalini energy can ignite the Christ Spark. Then, I had no clue, nor was i prepared for a spiritual awakening -- no matter how many books i had read.
I began to experience many things people have written about when suddenly going through a spiritual awakening process. I did not know that my Third Eye was ‘blown wide open’ until later that evening. My daughter, who had attended the Abdy Session with me, held my hand and talked with me as ‘what happened’ started to filter into my consciousness. My head was pounding and I couldn’t stop crying as full body waves of vibrating energy flowed through me. God/Spirit was talking to me and the vastness of the void was a reality i couldn't get my mind around -- i had so much to comprehend. Imagine, using the rational mind to understand Creator Source. No wonder i thought i was going insane.
Later that night, EmmaLee supported me through a vulnerable state of feeling totally overwhelmed by the “mind blowing” experience and she helped me regain my sanity, anchor and balance so i could sleep. I felt as though I had come apart on every level of my being, and I did not know how to put myself back together again. As each day progressed, I experienced overwhelming panic and anxiety, i couldn't breathe. I did not yet understand what was happening. But I was also aware of the protection and support of angels and those from the Spiritual Hierarchy, surrounding and thus guiding me through the discovery/awakening process. And Spirit sent me human angels that gently taught me and guided me as i now lived in a new reality.
My reality now included the truth that God, Higher Intelligence, Creator Source exists, and I was talking with Him/Her in two-way conversations. Over the next couple weeks, I questioned my life and definitely, I wanted more. I chose a life filled with joy, love, peace, trust and compassion. I questioned everything that existed in my old world. I was beginning to learn how to straddle both worlds. My body was vibrating continually. The language was spontaneously pouring out of my mouth—which gave me some concern as I was working full time as I moved through this accelerated change. The changes were evident to me on all levels of my physical, mental, emotional and spiritual bodies; and I wondered if anyone could tell. And then Spirit started teaching me.
The Bud Opens
Abdy was up again, just before the Harmonic Concordance in November 2003, when I realized God was not finished with me yet. I know I am only at the beginning, the ‘bud’ stage of a flower just opening – the beginning of being whole; however, the Christ energy was accelerating my path and enhancing my soul’s awakening. Abdy had told us to be very clear with our intent during the window from the 8th to the 23rd. It was on the 15th that I started to notice how the energy was affecting me.
That night, when I connected with the energy I found myself speaking with God, and in response to divine questions, I made several choices. I then experienced some amazing things. As I was speaking in Atlantean, Soul Language, I felt my awareness ‘step back’ from the cognitive process of consciously forming the language and I just observed. The pure language poured out of me for several minutes while I listened and “felt” the energy of the language/sounds.
Then as I sat on the couch, somehow, a wave of energy was triggered that rose up through my physical body and permeated every cell of my body. It felt like a ring of energy that rose up from my Base Chakra and out of my Crown Chakra. As it reached my shoulders, I felt heaviness literally tossed away from my body. I felt the emotional weight leave as it was thrown through my energy bodies. As this occurred, I spontaneously spoke out loud a blessing of transformation for the highest good. As the ring moved up through my head and away, the fogginess in my mind cleared. My shoulders physically relaxed, my whole body felt lighter, my mood was suddenly happier, and I was somehow different than I had been just prior to this event. Life was worth living again. I have never experienced such a total transformation in a mere 2 – 3 seconds before. I can no longer touch those warring emotions from the past – they are gone. And this was just the beginning, so much more followed.
The energy spirals continue as new miracles are unfolding and I understand that we are never “done”. I am asked, how has my life changed? Well, I talk with God and I can hear Her answer. I am discovering the purpose of this lifetime. I continue to gather all that I AM while healing the mental/emotional blockages. I see possibilities of future paths, and access other dimensions, see other realities, and my intuition is awake and I am more aware each day. I make choices with Divine guidance. My healing gifts are evolving, and I am a funnel for Christ Energy, a sacred gift of awakening to share as humanity evolves. And so, this was the beginning of changes that the Christ Energy in connection with my Soul, brought my way and ....
I believe that Love heals everything.
I live a life that will never be boring again!
Life flows with Love according to a Divine Plan.
I am remembering to Trust and to let go and let God.